Celebrating 30 years of miraculous life

Jan & Ruan (Harp) on a Parkrun in our area

Today I want to give thanks to the Father of eternity that created us all. Also for His goodness and faithfulness for the last 30 years, by telling the story of my covenant son Ruan, that turns 30 on the tenth of next month. (10/09/2022)

When he was born he was not normal. His parents did not have any warning as to his disabilities. They were young, broken and totally unprepared for the challenges this little boy brought with him.

His kidneys were underdeveloped. He had 6 fingers and toes on his hands and feet. He had low muscle tone and no sucking reflex as well as other issues. When his parents eventually got a diagnoses from a Doctor that specialized in genetics, Ruan was 8 months old. The prognosis was devastating:

Bardette-Biedl Syndrome of which they said:

2 years to live due to his kidneys. If he would live past that, he would be blind between 10 and 12, his mind would degenerate between 20 and 30 and he would slowly become non- functioning and he would maybe live until 30.

When he was 13 we invited family and friends for a ‘Bar Barakah’ (Son of the blessing) for him. It usually is at this event that the father blesses his son to enter into adulthood. My husband blessed Ruan with a long life and many other things. The Father’s presence was so thick in the room that there was no dry eye.

He turns 30 next month. He is growing. He is not totally blind. He is a light to all those around him. The Father has used him to help several people get out of a deep hole of depression and anxiety at the care facility that he is living at since 2019. He has prayer groups on WhatsApp and Telegram and has a direct line to the Father. Many times he would contact people he knows, at times, that they are going through severe challenges without knowing what they are going through.

I had the privilege to become his covenant mother 17 years ago after his dad had raised him with his parents for 6 years and alone for the last three years before we met. His biological mom left when he was 4. Brokenness drives people to strange things. The journey with him was a challenging yet absolutely transformational and faith-building one for all that are closely involved with him.

When you work with special needs children, you work with the apple of the Father’s eye. The testimony he builds and the way he ministers to people through his childlike faith and just being who he is, is mind- blowing.

The Father’s plan and the Doctor’s prognosis did not correlate. Ruan’s life thus far has been one that is a testimony of the miraculous works of the Father that have been defying human wisdom and assumptions for 30 years.

May this testimony be an inspiration to those that are facing challenges beyond their ability. It’s in these things that the Father reveal himself most spectacularly.

The Secret place

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Psalm 91:1-2 (VW)

The state of the godly

 1 He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
 2 I will say of Jehovah, He is my refuge and my fortress; my God, in Him will I trust.

When I think of a secret place or refuge and a place of safety, I think of a cosy, warm, comfortable and safe place where one can rest and recover. Let us explore these verses in the ancient Hebrew to understand what it really means.

He who dwells (yawshab)

Dwell is a pictograph of two front teeth and a tent which combined mean to ‘press to the tent’.

In the secret place (sêther sithrah)

In the ancient Hebrew the pictographs is of

Water: which can also point to chaos and blood

Thorn: thorn hedge that supports and protects

Cross: it is a mark of covenant

Nail: Tent peg, secure add

Head: Authority first.

In the secret place water, protection and a covenant is offered if you let yourself be secured to His tent and submit to His authority.

Of the Most high (Elyon)

The pictograph is of a staff and an eye which means: shepherd, staff, teach, to or from and knowledge or experience.

Combined it means to experience the staff.

If you choose to dwell in His secret place, it means you accept His discipline and leading and protection as a shepherd.

Shall abide = loon

To remain and stay contuniually. The pictograph is of a shepherd staff, a nail and a seed which means to continue. In other words to continually (seed) be pinned (tent peg) to the shepherd (staff)

Under the shadow = tsêl

Pictograph is of a man on his side (hiding) and a shepherd staff. To hide from danger under the shepherd staff.

Of the almighty =Shadday

The pictograph is of two front teeth and a tent door. Combined it means 2 that dangles down or breasts.

It also means the most powerful, almighty ruler or King.

To summarize everything it would read something like this.

He who is pressed to the tent (dwells), in the secret place where water, protection and covenant is offered, (if you let yourself be secured to the authority of the Most High where you experience the staff), will continually be pinned to the shepherd and hide under His staff from danger.

If you don’t submit to His authority in this secret place the water can also mean blood and chaos and the thorns might hurt you if you constantly try to push His boundaries. The secret to dwell securely is to submit to His authority and to His leading as the Shepherd and the Supreme ruler.

May El Ruach (The Spirit of Elyon) give us the resolve to remain in His secret place and submit to His authority. In the process of us settling into the secret place, we then create a space of grace where people can come and rest, recover and find Him as their Shepherd.

Learning to abide in the acceptance of His love

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In the last few years, I came face to face with my own brokenness, physically, emotionally and spiritually.  I came to the place of total numbness, where some days, I had to catch myself with the thought that life is not worth living.  To add to the challenge, I badly tore a ligament in my left ankle-which is my strong leg.

The lies of uselessness, being a burden and inherently feeling unwanted came to the surface vividly in this time.  None of this came from my marriage or my children.  Looking at my life, I had no reason to feel like this, which made the guilt trips for being in this place in the first place, worse.  The lies were exposed in the place of being totally stripped, where full burnout and immobility brought me to.

His Grace taught me in this time that my inherent worth is only determined by the One that loves me and made me.  Nothing I do, say or accomplish from striving can validate me.  We are validated through Yeshua only.  I was coming to a place of rest in Him.  Dealing with the lies and repenting for letting myself get to the point of burnout because of them, freed me.

It opened my eyes to a few things:

• Boundaries determined from a place of rest brings rest, real peace and order in a home.
• Everything I do, needs to come from that place of rest in Him.
• Everything I do because I want to validate my worth and usefulness adds burdens on me that are not from Him.
• We can only serve one another with love when we do it from our intimate resting place in Him.
• Any other service has some kind of condition attached to it, of which only our innermost being is sometimes aware. The fruit of serving in our own effort is burnout, strife and unmet expectations.

When we were house hunting again this year, I asked the Father to bring me to the place of contentment that Paul reached in Phil 4:11,12. One evening at home church he showed me where I was in Him since conception.  He showed me my inner-wing refuge in Him.  He brought me to a place of contentment in Him in spite of circumstances.

His rain brings the resources and His wind draws them out like the wind pump above. My ‘job’ is to operate from that place of acceptance and rest from which I can really start to live, move and have my being.

2018 Lessons

Every horse knows their position in line.

Proverbs 19:2 (CJB) ‘To act without knowing how you function is not good; and if you rush ahead, you will miss your goal.’

On a question to clarify how we (my husband and I) function in the body, a few years ago, the Father showed me the following: I saw a poem on a page. All the lines were the same length and filled the length and breadth of the page. Suddenly the words turned to gears. We were in the middle of the middle line. We started to run up and down through the lines of the poem and gave a spin-off as we went through it.

After Stephan Botha’s death two years ago, we realized that the poem represented the whole body and not just the home group network we were part of.

Last year we joined a lovely congregation in the area. They taught us in many ways what practical love looks like. In August we were asked to consider being part of the leaders. A few days later my mobile phone fell right in front of the meeting place and the screen cracked badly. It looks a bit like the Okavango delta now. It was also the last day of it’s warranty….

We did not consider our function thoroughly before getting more involved. We thought this could be a base from which we could operate. We stayed too long and stopped asking the Father where we should be every weekend. Some of the gears were stripped in the process, including our own. Trust was broken from both sides. Relationships that could have become friendships were badly damaged. Doctrine became so important that we forgot to look beyond our differences to see the grace flow and grace content in each other. Words were spoken in assumption on both sides and we were discussed in meetings we were not aware of. These words and the tension caused in the spirit, surrounding those unresolved issues literally made me sick. I was fighting against severe hopelessness and an overwhelming feeling of uselessness every day for two months. We even went for blood tests as I started to get chest cramps. When the Father showed me what was happening, I could move out from under the black blanket of negative words. My health was instantly restored. My connection with the rest of the body was restored as well. People started to contact us again to whom we have not spoken in months.

Our words have the power to build or to kill. Will we choose to use it wisely?

We need to consider how we function before we accept any offer, even though it seems right to us. We need to find His strategy for every situation. If we rush in because it feels right, without a word from the Father, the collateral damage might be more than we can imagine.

Let’s make room for the different parts of the body to function in their place. May the Father open our eyes, to look beyond our differences, to see the grace content and grace flow in each other. May we learn to regard each part of the body as equally important and treat them as such. May we learn to seek the truth together in the process of making sense of our differences. May our relationships and living His love be more important than being right.

Resting in His acceptance

This is my journey of Coming to abide in a place of resting in His acceptance.

In the last year my whole being came to a place where I gave up on myself. Physically and emotionally I came to a place of burn out. Some days I did not want to live anymore. On those days I would force myself to be thankful for what I have and repeated all the promises I knew. It was like constantly swimming upstream alone. The joy of my salvation was elusive to say the least. In the last few months my daily prayer was: ‘Father restore to me the joy of my salvation’

The constant feeling of ‘what’s the use, you don’t matter, your life don’t matter, you are in the way and what you say and do does not make a difference’, dragged me down to a point that I said to the Father that I don’t want to live anymore if I have to live like that. No amount of thankfulness or renewing my mind with His promises, chased away the nagging feeling, but kept it at bay. I kept on serving my family with love, as that was the only clear directive that made it against the onslaught of these terrible nagging thoughts. All else seemed futile and useless.

This past weekend the Father brought me to a beautiful farm in the Groot Mariko District, through a friend of mine that turned physically blind in the last year. On this beautiful place he restored my joy and finally showed me through a man and women in his service that ‘I am wanted’. We brought my friend to people that nurtured him spiritually, for physical healing and in the process the Father opened my spiritual eyes.

I needed to forgive my father again for not wanting me when he heard I was on the way. In the process I forgave him again for disappearing for weeks at a time without us knowing where he was in the first seven years of my life. This was so traumatic to me that my mind cut it out totally. When my sister spoke to me about it when I was 21 it was news to me. Even though I could not remember it, this just perpetuated the lie that I was unwanted. This feeling had dominated my life to such an extent that on many days I wanted to do to my family what my father did to us. I did not realize my reaction to what my father did was the source of my battle, because I thought I had dealt with it already. It took going to a piece of land where I felt fully accepted and loved by the people and the land, to break this cycle that I had been caught in for years. The owner of the land lead me to forgive my father again for not wanting me and Yeshua freed me from an orphan spirit. It was not the first time, but this time I was totally free.

Afterwards we went up to a landing strip that this man is busy building. There I saw in the physical what the father has shown me in the spirit about the third dimension or the most special place. Yeshua tore the curtain so we could enter into His presence with fullness of joy. That is but a door to a great panorama of wide open spaces. The photo above depicts something of what I saw. It’s not a photo of the landing strip, as the landing strip view is so vast that a camera cannot fully capture what one sees up there.

Never will I be unwanted again, because on that beautiful farm, my heart came to a place where it finally understood that:
‘The King of the universe wants me.’

On the way back we visited a lady that is busy creating a garden of Eden on her farm. In this garden she is busy growing herbs, vegetables and many plants that would be needed to live and be restored back to health. I wanted to surprise my friend whose sight is being fully restored. There the Father provided his abundance for the day in the physical. We also met people to whom we had a connection surrounding Zimbabwe since 2011.

It took nearly 20 years for me to get to this place of assurance through many clues and healing sessions. What He gave this time is like the icing on the cake.

Finally I am free and can rest in the deepest recesses of my heart in the knowing:
‘I am accepted in the Beloved.’

The grace of Growth

Over December we had to store all our furniture at a friend’s place and look after another friend’s house while we tried to find another house over the holiday season in South Africa. My pots with some plants had to be left behind at our old house until we found a new place. In my mind I wrote them off.

About 6 weeks later I went to fetch them. To my surprise they were thriving. There were even a lovely watermelon plant that grew from seeds my children dropped in one pot. No one took care of them. The rain fed and nurtured them. Before I went to fetch them I was discouraged because of numerous battles we were facing at the time. Realizing that they grew without my care, simply by recieving rain and just being, encouraged me. All I had to do is give them soil and put them in the rain. Our creator and savior Yeshua is the one that provides the growth through pre-programmed genius creation of each creature, plant or human. All He requires of us is to receive His rain, that contains all the nurture we need to grow. We cannot force growth through performance. We can water and fertilize when the rain is little, but we are not in control of the growth. Sometimes the best growth happens just through receiving nurture through His grace-and-truth rain. Just by being and receiving what He gives.

With us however we can block the growth by refusing to recieve grace from Him and having grace with ourselves. We tend to perform to live up to whatever standard got stuck in our head. When we don’t live up to this standard we condemn ourselves and refuse grace. By doing that we create an environment around ourselves that numbs and dampen all initiative and creativity. Because we constantly condemn ourselves for not meeting the invisible, unrealistic standards in our head, we block His rain. In the process those around us constantly feel guilty and condemned as well.

Growth will happen both ways. When we choose to remain a slave to our high standards we create a parisitical, cancerous environment from which every one around us long to escape.

When we choose to release ourselves from the stranglehold of our unrealistic expectations, we can start to recieve his Grace-and-truth rain. This growth will be positive and create an environment in which those around us can grow as well.

You create a safe haven where everyone around you can feel safe and accepted because you recieved the truth that you are accepted in the Beloved.

Om te week in die lafenis van aanvaarding

In die wêreld is aanvaarding en toegeneentheid skaars. Ons almal soek dit, maar is versigtig om dit te gee. Ons is bang om dit te gee. Hoekom? Miskien omdat ons nie eers weet hoe om dit eerstens vir onsself te gee nie. Of dalk omdat ons nie weet hoe dit lyk nie, want dit is te min vir ons gegee. Vrees vir misbruik kan ň groot rede wees.

Dan is ons ook uiters versigtig wanneer mense dit vir ons gee. Hoekom? Dalk verwag ons dat daar een of ander toutjie aan die gee verbind is wat ons later gaan seermaak. Baie keer wonder ons of iemand nog iets goed vir iemand anders kan doen sommer net omdat hulle lief is vir die ander persoon.
Paulus skryf aan die Efesiërs in hoofstuk 5 daaroor. Die Mirror vertaling stel dit baie mooi.

Efesiërs 5 uit die mirror vertaling. Onthou – no more Shame!
26 Die manier waarop God met ons praat in Christus is soos om in ñ diep warm bad te lê en week totdat elke vlek en vuil spontaan verdwyn.

Baie keer is ons bang om te luister na wat Vader vir ons wil sê. Miskien omdat ons straf verwag soos ñ skoolkind wat na die hoof se kantoor geroep word.

Miskien sien ons Hom in ons onderbewuste as ñ God wat straf en toets, maar nie omgee oor hoe ons voel en dink oor dinge nie. Dink ons Hy is onbetrokke en krities soos baie van ons, ons Pa’s beleef het? Die gevoel dat mens nooit goed genoeg sal wees of doen gaan nie weg nie.

Die bg was nog nooit sy hart nie. Hy wil ons liefhê net soos wat ons is. Hy het ons immers so gemaak. Hy weet hoe ons oorspronklike plan lyk. Die wêreld en ons gebrokenheid daarbinne het ons wese kom versluier en toemaak sodat ons nie kan sien wie ons werklik is.

27 Die effek van hierdie intieme gesprek stel die Ekklesia kerk aan Hom voor in Sy herstelde beeld en gelykenis in die mens; sonder enige herinnering aan die verleentheid van ñ skewe verlede, nie eers ñ merk of wond van misbruik bly oor nie. Sy staan voor Hom in onberispelike onskuld.
28 Die beste ding wat ñ man kan doen is om sy vrou heeltemal lief te hê en dit gedurig vir haar te sê. Dit is selfs beter vir jou lyf as gesond eet en gym.
29 Stel jou voor hoe dom dit moet wees om jouself so te haat dat jy jou eie liggaam verag, nee man! Vertroetel hom eerder, trek hom mooi aan en laat hom goed voel. Kry die boodskap, jy is die liggaam van Christus; Hy is nie opgeskeep met jou en duld jou maar net verleë nie! Hy is dolverlief op jou!
In Yeshua is ons genoeg. In Joshua na die reën se lied ‘Dromers’  sing hy: “Almal sou genoeg kon wees, want vir almal was Hy genoeg gewees”
Kan ons glo dat ons genoeg is deur Sy werk aan die kruis? Partykeer voel dit vir my of ons skaamte en ‘performance’ ons gemaksone geword het, waarbinne ons, ons onsself regverdig en in beheer voel.
30 God vind uitdrukking en definisie in die mens; ons is sy werklike liggaam, vleis en bloed, murg en gebeente, volledig Syne! Ons lewe maak God sigbaar, tasbaar, wow!

Ons lees altyd die stuk asof net vir getroude mense. Dit is eintlik geskryf om vir ons te laat verstaan hoe lief Yeshua ons het. Ons behoort in Hom en aan Hom, het deur Hom gekom en kan tot Hom voluit Leef omdat Hy ons nog altyd liefgehad, want Hy IS vir altyd genoeg.

Daarom kan ons in Sy aanvaarding en toegeneentheid week tot ons vlekkeloos en sonder skaamte voor Hom staan.

Choosing to remain in the bond of peace.

In the last few weeks we don’t seem to get away from 22.

The Number 22 unites the entire body of Scripture, because there are 22 letters in the Hebrew alphabet and is also the numerical value for the Hebrew word Yachad, meaning unite.

Remember how one 2 of 22 needs to turn to form a heart with a foundation or cherubs over the mercy seat.

We need to face each other like the cherubs over the mercy seat. If both parties are on their knees facing each other, the fact that they humble themselves to be fully transparent (truth) and to keep the grace in place will help us get through difficulties in relationships. If one of the 2 parties turn away and write the other off as dispensable we find ourselves in a catch 22 situation where there is no foundation of grace and truth, thus no love, thus no movement.

We need to agree on what is important like

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Ephesians 4:1-6 (VW)  ‘I, therefore, the prisoner of the Lord, beseech you to walk worthy of the calling with which you were called, with all lowliness and meekness, with longsuffering, bearing with one another in love,

endeavoring to keep the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace.

There is one body and one Spirit, just as you were called in one hope of your calling; one Lord, one faith, one immersion; if one God and Father of all, who is above all, and through all, and in you all.‘

With the rest we need to be willing to give each other room to agree to disagree, otherwise we will certainly not be known as His disciples. By being willing to give each other room we endeavour to keep the unity of Spirit in the bond of peace.

That bond’s  Thayer Definition:

‘that which binds together, a band, bond of ligaments by which the members of the human body are united together that which is bound together, a bundle

Origin: from G4862 and G1199‘

When we don’t keep the unity of the spirit in the bond of peace a few things start to happen. Being right in our own eyes, winning an argument at the cost of someone’s soul, money and image becomes more important than our relationships and we run the risk of losing or hurting our own souls and those of the people we love. We even run the risk of jeopardising the soul of the land we are on because soil has memory. To be a king means to walk among the people or to work from a foundation of power and authority. We have been given dominion over everything on earth, except each other. We are to willingly submit to one another only after each one has submitted under the head who is Yeshua and has found their individual place of belonging to the Head. The head will then establish the nessacary connection with the rest of the body. The body parts however may NEVER confuse their role with that of the head. If they do the body will get hurt and scatter.

May the Father grant us the Spirit of the fear of Yahweh and of wisdom to stay in the bond of peace in every situation.

Starting with our 12th year

Sometimes we pray for things for years and nothing seems to happen. Sometimes it seems that the Father is on mute when it comes to our personal lives, while still speaking to us about other people.

There are a few stories that flow together. My mother had a back operation 2 years ago. My brother’s oldest son, Reuben was reconciled with my parents after there was almost no relationship because of conflict between my brother and his wife, and my parents. Things were left unsorted for years. Hard-headedness from both sides robbed them from valuable relationships for about 15 years. This was the beginning of a reconciliation process that has been postponed for 3 generations between father and oldest son.

Since our first child was born and I stopped working we have been struggling financially, but we have never been without food. My husband got out of teaching to self-publish his book in 2010 and we started our own multi-faceted business. It had been an exhilarating, yet difficult walk. He had been trying to find a job for the last few months without being successful. Many times I would go to a friend and say that it feels that the Father had forgotten us.

On 11\11\2016 a friend of ours was killed in an accident. He was literally crushed between a concrete wall and a fully loaded traylor. Part of his function in the body was to protect the heart much like the rib cage does. His death exposed the heart and showed us that the love in the body got hurt critically. He was a father in Africa and the wound will take a long time to heal. His death just exposed the spiritual wound that was already there in the body. His life was about the secret chord of unity where we create a space of grace for each other even though we may not agree in areas. Much like the 2 sides of DNA that will never meet, but are connected with struts that bind them together in a unique pattern. With Stephan’s death a multiplication of who he was took place in the understanding of the body around him. 11/11 became 22:22.

In Isaiah 22:22 Isaiah 22:22 it says: (Voice in the Wilderness)  ‘And the key of the house of David I will lay on his shoulder; so he shall open, and no one shall shut; and he shall shut, and no one shall open.’ This references to. Rev 3:8 ‘Revelation 3:8 (VW)  I know your works. Behold, I have set before you an open door, and no one can shut it; for you have a little strength, have kept My Word, and have not denied My name.’

My eldest brother called me a week before our 11th anniversary which is the start of our 12th year together. He wanted to organize a family get-together at my place on our anniversary without knowing that it was on the same day. My whole family was there. Even my brother and his oldest son came. They have not spoken to each other for over a year because of a deadlock in their relationship. Reconciliation has not taken place yet, but at least they saw each other. Even the code of the buns that I ordered was 22. On our anniversary we received a car as a gift. The car is 11 years old.

After the family gathering I realized that if you turn one 2 of the 22 to face the other one as a mirror image it makes a heart with a foundation, looking like the cherubs covering the mercy seat and like buffalo horns connected in the front. When we find ourselves in a ‘catch 22’ situation one of the 2’s must turn in our heads first so our place of grace and love can be restored, so we can rule, be joyful and thankful in our circumstances.

My husband accepted a post at a new school yesterday after months of searching and our business has picked up in great leaps in the past few weeks. I don’t quite understand why it took so long, but I know that the Father is busy weaving a tapestry of which we only see the back and sometimes a glimpse of the front. When the back seems like a mess we must just trust the one that sees the whole tapestry.

Choose Life

Written 19 November 2016

In the last few months we have been confronted with death in an ever increasing stream of bad news. For us personally a friend almost died when a buffalo trampled him. He lost his left leg from below the knee. Thankfully he is recovering well. Another friend’s daughter was found in a coma next to her husband and died on the way to hospital. She was only 22. This past week we were at the Thanksgiving service for a friend’s life that died in a tragic accident. He leaves his wife and 2 children. He was a father in Africa. He was a farmer in Africa. He had many other children in the spirit and worked tirelessly for community transformation in Africa. The recent floods killed at least 6 people of which one is a 3 year old girl who is probably still missing. Daily we are receiving reports of more and more brutal farm murders and attacks. Every farmer employ between 3 to 300, people if not more.  With the politicians inciting white and black people against each other and saying they are going to kill if farms are not handed over without compensation, it makes it difficult to see a future in a country whose leadership does not want a certain people group that have been part of them for 400 years to continue to live here.

When faced with physical evidence of death, how are we as believers supposed to react if we believe in Yeshua that is Life itself? On the day of the thanksgiving service for Stephan, our friend, my brother’s son asked me what I thought of the sketch of Albrecht Dürer called the Rider, or more commonly known as The Rider, Death and Satan. He did not know about Stephan.
The following was my response:
‘They (death and Satan) can’t however operate with Light even if they are always lurking just outside the circle of Light. Look at the difference in demeanor between the 2 horses in the picture. Our default is death….being distracted by negativity and fear is our sinful nature. The choice is Life. Even in the face of death and tragedy, we can choose life. The movie ‘The Book thief’ is a good example of this….
When someone close to you die however, the choice is not to surrender to the desire to join them in our thoughts. We cannot become the ‘living dead’ because of pain and loss. While we are here we need to choose Life in every action, word and thought even though it might be shrouded by pain, uncertainty and death. When we are in the cloud of witnesses we will see all without the shroud. Until then we have to have faith in the promise of Life (Yeshua) Himself. ‘

Today we have a choice to overcome the evil inside each of us that steers us automatically to negativity, fear and eventually death. The first thing we have to do is to put a guard in front of our mouths and speak life.  Pray and surrender to Life and ask for His agenda for the country.  Thousands are gathering today with Angus Buchan to bring this country to Yeshua and ask that His agenda will be the one that prevails.  The only way it can prevail however is if each and every one that profess to know Him starts to ask for His strategy in their unique situation and follow that in spite of fear and death all around us. Our country is in a huge crisis.  May the Father of Life grant us the Spirit of wisdom and understanding, counsel and might, knowledge and perhaps, most of all the fear of YAHWEH which is where all Wisdom starts.